Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Can Melanoma Come And Go?

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Formerly the genetic engineering came watermelons fears associated with the arrival of a new Hitler, the creation of a sub-race of humanoids for use as slaves and the sons have all blond. I, however, drank genetic manuals fantasized my parents and hundreds of aberrations that have shaken the new Hitler (who had been a poor lame Huelva baker, food lover, the Catalan rumba and father of two stutter a little whores girls) My rantings became labyrinthine corners such that now I feel guilty even to intuit.

However, in some ways I was naive. For example, I never realized the possibilities of genetic science applied to the field of nervous system modification. Perhaps having been educated at a post-behaviorist tradition that gave greater importance to learning and means of inheritance, perhaps spend too much time every day to masturbation. The

not assessing the use of genetics for this purpose amazes me because that was my main obsession during those non-sexual first years of college. I longed to change my nervous system over all. In protest, as entertainment, as a form of expression, but mainly as a way to get my El Dorado particular: the state of constant vigilance . He hated to sleep, it seemed a waste of time. Now I find it shameful and more considering I'm a very passionate oneironauts, but when you are young is so unconscious and soplagaitas.

To get the constant vigil that was supposed to use a combined use of chemical methods (amphetamines, cocaine, caffeine, nicotine, any fucking monoamine agonist served me) and surgical methods (completely unnecessary to tell the truth, but as attractive to a neurotic CANTAMAÑANAS in full golden age of grunge ...) The methods were there, but ... Were they to me?

The idea of \u200b\u200bsomeone competent to get me the skull trephining me absurd even then. To get drugs should move in a lumpen which had had enough in my neighborhood during my childhood. Nevertheless, during a short season that did not exceed the quarter I joined a bunch of awesome shit that I provided drugs. I did really more bourgeois flirtation (and by casting a cap ) that as fate, but soon my ass wobbly sensitivity with rosy cheeks urged me to let them die of AIDS quietly.
was alone, so I opted for the ever-so-vaunted-but-you-in-reality-no-means-nothing-really-important-nor-meritorious DIY. It was clear that if someone had bit and supplied shit that had to be me .

My father was and still is a carpenter. I've always enjoyed with his tool bench and I have also exercised their profession, but never with the same expertise. One morning in August, snapping a block of wood hammer (and, all told, under the influence of LSD cut with amphetamines) I managed to glimpse the solution to my problems as I smashed his thumb with a hammer, would have to invent a kind of workbench to conform to the skull, with all kind of surgical instruments and DIY (scalpels, clamps, chisels, files, drills, rasps, saws, drills, grinders, hand drills, jigsaws, brushes), nanotechnology (what I called neurotransmitters artificial pumps that would a sort of mini-labs synthesizers endorphins that are implanted in the neural areas necessary) and all sorts of substances chungas (from line contact to catecholamines). With all these elements, a system of mirrors and levers would create the DIY Kit brain.

Employing cautious but bold, having read a small book of brain mapping (though well thought out, nobody in their right mind would read these guides boring) and practice a few times with your little neighbors or your younger siblings, a might alter their behavior, increase or decrease his aggressiveness, his libido, forget (not selectively, of course, forget everything to dry), never sleeping, still more stupid, well, that was great as tool recreational and self-discovery . Prejudicial nature endowed him besides some danger essences and irreversibility more suburban tattoo worthy.

I enjoyed imagining the boxes in which they would all packed. I imagined thousands of brightly colored boxes stacked on the shelves of toy stores mega colossal world. Waves of children accompanied by parents, teachers, publicists, favorite singers, pimps and endocrine would rush over them, with the same adventurous spirit that the Knights Templar at the beginning of his crusades. This was a new era, the era of cross self-modification of nervous for games, I said to myself, full of pride in my innocence and delight.

Poor me. The advent of genetic engineering send all my machinations worthy of the most naive nineteenth-century romanticism to waste. Who needed so much paraphernalia surgical now? The solution was no longer in our hands, but in our genes . The lace was the stem cell research , final checkmate my idea of \u200b\u200byummy essential irreversibility of the process. I realized that my time had passed and I went to other things.

Wednesday, September 8, 2004

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the late nineties I was hanging around an absurd project took years to disappear completely from my thoughts. The idea was so simple and stupid: it was about creating a service of Hitlers to make an appointment for dinner at a Mexican restaurant. A kind of TeleAdolf.

I was convinced that this was a perfect plan to give a little color to the evening routine of so many lonely urbanites. And after a day of hard work, get to the apartment for a night watching movies on video and taking a piece of cold pizza before bed can be very good, but I'm sure that's not the kind of life one wishes carry for the rest of his days. Ditto regarding the services of a prostitute or a hustler. For the love of god, sometimes not enough for a measly polvete. People need love. Having the option to call the Führer himself to go to make enchiladas and hold a good Kurdish range of possibilities open to cope with a single life alienated.

course I would take care of indoctrinating each of my employees. Would be great conversationalists, able to justify its past policy achievements maximizing and minimizing their abominations with a "was not so bad." That would be the motto of the company, to the delight of revisions lumpen. People hire outgoing, humorous, but with some style. Who knew dozens of songs and hymns to sing Germans embraced the customer, perhaps accompanied by a small band of mariachis, perhaps a capella (plus payment of Wagner). People would like art, good conversation, with a certain culture but never pedantic. And maybe at the last minute could play the role of decadent leader faces his ghosts, his knees begging forgiveness for his crimes. But that would have to pay plus repentance. Due in part to my Jewish origins came to weigh create a lynching plus, but that's only for VIPs. The important thing is that customers return home with a smile and had something interesting to say the next day at his office colleagues.

The project was ambitious, I have no doubt. I was not sure as planteármelo, whether as a business, a work of art or as a service to the community. He was also aware that very few people would be able to interpret such a role with the intensity that I wanted and at the time, so believable. Sometimes I realized that maybe I was the only one capable of doing something, but at that point in my life I had no liarme too eager to host with Nazis and punks. Also at a later stage to incorporate more celebrities thought such, but I knew it was something that went beyond me and I was eating. So I let it go.

Sometimes I remember my TeleAdolf. We live in dangerous times for this kind of shit, but if someone is willing to finance the business, lent me happy. The world needs art.

Tuesday, September 7, 2004

Become Anotary Of Republic Manitoba

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Given the weeping, free and self-indulgent in this blog of mine, I think an attempt to try to bring some thematic coherence, aesthetic, ideological and personal at this point would only make more evident its character as trash.
time of writing on paper, the paper was an essential element. It ended up discarded hundreds of ideas that finally convinced us or we were not able to address the way we thought was right. Balls of paper, ribbons, studs and cigarette butts that we emptied the ashtray at regular intervals. It was the destination of couples abandoned by the Muses and after being fucked evil, ugly ideas of dance which also did not know to click and send him to ass the whole party. The basket in ending the shit we had to clear to reach what he called someone "own voice."
The problem is that finding one's voice requires more of ourselves than perhaps we are willing to accept. With one's voice always happens that when we finally get to hear we find it ugly. Is it true that I have that voice? It must be the recording, which distorts. So many times our voice, the authentic, it ended precisely in the paper, wrinkled, torn into pieces.
I am committed to making public My menstrual diary, so I made my blog a graveyard of abandoned projects before birth. Mine is a voice that I like it too, but like my wife loves me and I just do not understand why, maybe someone can have fun with some of my ideas abandoned. If I may, to read, may feel compelled to pick up and out. Be that as it is something I'm excited to do.

Monday, August 2, 2004

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Alicia, my whole life. DTE Cuambto bier. The word made fat

live without Alicia. I do not remember how to do that, or want to remember or think to face that possibility. It is a concept that does not exist. Or that there exists as the concept of hell. I have never believed in hell. Indeed it does not fear. Or nothing, and the absurd. Fuel are part of a neurotic, the only thing I could keep going without an Alice to which a handshake.

And remember to breathe without it. And I'm not lying. At night, my episodes of apnea, I was startled awake and find the quiet breathing as she breathes. Today

try to sleep without Alicia for the first time. Be the last time as rest of my life, I think. My chest is burning. And my flesh smells hospital. I hope that the next operation can get a room and comfort in their restless sleep as she has always done me. If your injuries

sanasen with mine, I would be pound of flesh torn. A holocaust, a holocaust. And I sold like cattle, as a eunuch or as a prostitute to subnormal blind god, in a time now, it allows us to enjoy a moment of peace. And kill him, as the son of a bitch.

Alice my wife, my whole life. I will never tire of telling you how much I love you. I do it again now, though I fall out mucus and do not stop to mourn. DTE Cuambto bier. Soon be home again and we joke about everything that has happened, and what will happen to us.

Monday, June 28, 2004

I Want To Hire Jenna Jameson



I want the words I write as lipids circulate in my blood. Thick words, capricious, spitting with their riot every beat of my heart. Words stuck to any channel by which they were issued. Words will be stored until needed and actually do, then, is metabolized in all organisms exposed to them. Thick would be words, words that the children retire to the edge of the plates with the tip of the knife.
much I would have the power, my words, separating the child from the man.

I have to settle for undressed, however. My actions always leave a trace, in everything I play. It's my way of marking territory, is how I learned to make love to swallow the smoke, fear for everything and everyone. And so I leave evidence. Some traces common patterns that I can recognize without ending never believe what I'm seeing. And my words will be useful to anyone, and will be broken and weak pulse. But children may retire at the edge of the plates, and the flesh wound along the edge of their knives is my flesh. My flesh against yours. I am unable to get much further, that's the truth.